Long week but a good week

Sara and John went on vacation last week to Cuba and I babysat the beautiful children with alot o help from Jess. I had a great time being with the kids. They are awesome. Gus is standing up lots and letting go. One of these days she will take off walking!!!!! Corbin was great. Except for getting up ubber early he was a good little guy. He just knows when to hug you and tell you he loves you. And this week I really need to know that.
I mailed Don the letter. In hindsite I wish I hadn't. What good is it going to do. I'm sure he is sure he has now found Miss Right even though she lives in another country half way around the world. Too bad he never listened to his heart all thoes years ago when he told me if he listened to his heart he would have been happy with me but he knew in his head who he was looking for and I wasn't it. I talked to him about moving back to Ontario. Even went so far as too look for jobs for him and offered to help him with his resume. Offered him places to stay while he gets himself established. Long story short by the end of the coversation I was in tears, mostly due to myself thinking I might have a chance to start over with him and see where it goes. If he decides that he doesn't want to do that it, my heart will still be broken (good thing it didn't heal from before), but I will get over it and he will be the loser in all of this. If he decides to pursue his "friend" then I will be backing off big time in conversing with him. Again his lose. Anyway I'm exhuasted and will probably sleep alot this week. I also have to figure out how to pay our bills this month. Its going to be difficult and some of them won't get paid but the important ones will. Anyway heading off to Willie's for dinner tonight and Don is suppose to call. We'll see how that goes. Since he was suppose to send me an email on Friday and it is now Sunday and still waiting for it. Some things never change.