Family Suck

Don is here for a visit. Actually its a stop over on his way to visit his girlfriend in Poland. He and I had a long talk on Sunday night and we are better off as friends then anything else. But it still doesn't make it any easier when you love someone to watch them move on. It like my heart was broken all over again. Build the wall, stay behind the wall and don't let anyone in. That way youd on't get hurt. We had a family dinner at Willie's house yesterday as well. John couldn't come because he had to work. So we had Willie, Harold, Gail, Jess, Corbin, Gus, Me and Sara. Of course Sara has to get all pissed off at Jess and yell at her because Jess took Corbin with her to the store. I have just had it with Sara. I spoke to her on the phone today and apparently I nag her about everything but she didn't want to get into right now. We'll talk later. So I ask later after my surgery and she says like in 6 months and I said no after Wednesday. She says I didn't know it was a surgical procedure. What the hell does she think it is???? I have to go into the hospital, be put to sleep and have a freaking tube stuffed down my throat. Yeah whatever. She can do whatever she wants when ever she wants and without me. I'm tiried of this shit I really am. As long as everyone acts and speaks and does what she wants everything is great. Well I'm tired of playing by those rules so she can do whatever she wants and if she blows out her stomach well, not my problem. I offered to look after the kids until she sees the doctor. Her choice if she declines. Oh yeah she is pissed too cuz yesterday I wouldn't drop everything and run over and watch the kids so she could go on the boat with Don and John. I don't have a life. I don't have anything to do. Well everyone can just go to hell. I'm gonna do what is going to make me happy and the rest of them can go......well you get the idea.