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I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm just not happy. I don't know what to do about it. Its pretty sad when a 2 year old can see how unhappy you are. We had the kids for a couple of days,while Sara and John had a mini vacation. Corbin would walk over to me and put his little hands on my face and say "I love you Nan". Later in the day he would come over to me and put his hands on my face and say "happy not grumpy". I talked to Kathy about it today and I told her I haven't felt this bad about myself since my Mom died. She is going to continue to talk to me about my uhappiness and see what we can do to make me feel better. I love my family, my girls, my grandbabies, and John, but for some reason it doesn't make me happy. I thought it might be because of the weather but its not. This has been coming on for some time.
I also saw the dr on Thursday and he said my knee is doing great and I don't have to go back to see him until October. He can't replace my right knee for a couple of years but he did suggest I see someone in Oshawa to have it scoped. So I see the family doctor on Friday. He also doesn't think I should be making plans to go back to work for a while yet. Maybe try to get my back to stop hurting so much. Things can only get better right?????

We're back from Florida!!!!

Our trip to Florida was wonderful. The weather was great, the food was good and the best part is neither Jess or I gained any weight. Good for us. We can back to extremely cold weather. I guess we shouldn't complain too much, it took winter until now to show up!!!! Sara and John looked after our house for us and picked us up at the airport. They brought the kids with them, which was good because we really missed all of them.
I have a sore throat and cold. I feel like crap. Tomorrow we are seeing June at Sara's house. I hope she tells me something good. Like I'm gonna win a lotter and never ever have to go back to work!!!!!!!!!

Florida been there done that

We got back from Florida yesterday. We were there 2 weeks and for the most part we had a great time. Only a couple of arguments and they weren't very big ones. We did lots of shopping and we bought tons of stuff for the kids. Jess bought some clothes and so did I. Both of us got smaller sizers. Whohoo...good for us. We ate well and I walked alot. So much that I'm not wearing my brace or using my cane. Well the real story on that is using my cane hurts my back. Its better for me not to use it. Anyway this year has started off pretty good. Now if that money will just appear in the bank account to pay off the bills things will be perfect.

New Year same worries

My sister was trying to help me out by getting a line of credit for me to use to pay off my credit cards. She applied way back in December and before she left for Florida it was suppose to be all okayed. Anyway, long story short, no line of credit and unless there is a miracle I'm kinda sorta screwed. I'm praying that everything will eventually work out. I think I figured a way to at least pay off my overdraft but I'm gonna need Sara to put it back for me. I feel deep down inside this is going to work out. Its just going to take time and faith.
The sleep over went well. Corbin only woke up a couple of times and one of those time was cuz I had to get up. He slept in until around 745 am. I love my little guy and I love his sister too. They make my life as do my girls.
I finally got an email from Don. Apparently his life has been overwhelming lately. He is suppose to call me. I don't see what could be overwhelming...........maybe we could switch lives for a couple of days. I could show him overwhelming....:)

sleepover

I have a sleepover. I love sleepovers. I get to have a warm body in my bed (other then then Charlie). It is so nice to wake up in the morning and roll over to see a beautiful smile to start the day. We are having a nice quiet dinner, watching a movie and then its off to bed, where we lie cuddled into each other watching tv until we drift off to sleep.
My sleepover guest is 2 1/2 years old and he is the most beautiful little boy in the whole world. He is my grandson, Corbin. Hopefully he sleeps thru the night. He has been having the problem at home of getting up a number of times a night. So keeping my fingers crossed we sleep thru the night. Like I said........I LOVE sleeplovers!!!!!!

Sometimes I just bitch cuz

This is my diary. I don't have a journal cuz I don't like writing. I like typing cuz then my thoughts and my words usually stay together. When I write my thoughts get ahead of my words. Anyway, sometimes in this blog I write things cuz I'm pissed off at the moment. I love my daily calls from Sara. She keeps me grounded and in tune with life. I don't know what I would do if I didn't talk to her many many times a day. So, Sara I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings. I didn't mean to. I was just venting, which I'm sure you know when you don't have a lot of friends is sometimes hard to do to your family.
I would never intentional do anything to hurt you.

Happy New Year

2007 is here and I'm looking forward to making it a great year. I am not making any resolutions cuz I don't keep them anyway so what I have done is make some goals that are, in my opinion, attainable.
Keep on losing weight, and get to my goal.
Spend alone time with both my daughters.
Go back to work.
Thank you Sara and Jessica for listening and looking after me in 2006. I know I was difficult most of the time but I'm proud of both of you for getting me through the tough times and celebrating the good times. Thank you to John for being a great son in law. Listening and talking was good for me. Thank you to my sister who helped me out with bills. You will get paid back. And last by certainly not least a big big thank you to Corbin and Aeva-Grace. If it wasn't for your beautiful smiles and hugs and kisses I wouldn't be sitting here today. I love you all. Happy 2007.