decisions

I am having a hard time making decisions lately. I want to go back to work without owing them money. I think I'm going to ask my sister for a loan that I will pay back as soon as I get my income tax return. I want to be able to get my full pay when I go back without having money come off. I'm screwed as it is anyway with my line or credit and credit cards being maxed out. I really need to think before I get crazy and go and buy stuff. I mean how sad that Sara felt the need to tell her friends at the Bay not to sell me anything!!!!! I'm still looking forward to going back to work. I went and saw Sara and the kids today. Corbin is so smart. He is learning to talk and he responds to almost everything that you say to him. At least he does when he is not wrapped up in his movies!!! and Gus is so cute. She is cooing and smiling all the time. I am so blessed to have my grandbabies, my girls and even John. Got a ton of stuff to do today so I better get my big rear end into gear.