do drs know best?

I went to see the doctor today about my knee. I think he doesn't have the capacity to hear exactly what is said to him. He never said anything about the valgus and talked about my having a low grade infection. Nothing about the clicking in knee or the grating of my knee cap. He then says maybe I should also have a couple of scans done. Yeah right. So tomorrow I have to go for blood tests to check out this low grade infection. I don't agree with him but what the heck do I know?? My supervisor is coming for tea tomorrow. Personally I think its to check me out to make sure I really am as bad off as I say I am. Saw Corbin today. He is awesome. Loves timbits. Aeva-Grace was a good girl. Her mom says she slept all nite!!!!!

I'm bored

I'm bored tonight. Jess is out with Darcy and Sara and John are hopefully on the way home from Hamilton. There is nothing on tv. I saw my therapist yesterday. She thinks I may need to have more surgery cuz the implant is clicking and making noises.....this is not good. Work sent me an email yesterday telling me that I can now use my vacation time etc to get me through to ltd. On Thursday they said no, cuz it would put me "back on the books" as working and it would affect my waiting period. I wish they would make up their freaking minds. I think when I finally do go back to work I'm going to apply for a administration assistant. I don't want to go back to communications. Most of them don't like me and I don't like them either.

can it get any worse????

You know the last name of Cheseboro goes hand in hand with complications.....nothing every goes as plans with us. Sara and her problem after giving birth, Jess and her CI, me and my knee. Ugh..........I can't go back to work on Feb.1 cuz of the valgus of my knee. It is making my hip hurt so bad and I can't bend my knee properly, can't walk, can't stand, can't sit. Work is being a-holes about it. I think I have to write an essay to HR to explain why I'm not coming back and why I need the membership to give me some time to carry me through until I qualify for LTD. I sent Moe an email to tell her I wasn't coming back and her response was "thats not what I wanted to hear". Well gee sorry I'm screwing up your pltn. Maybe I can find a job that pays as well, where I only have to work half the year and get 7-10 weeks off each year, while I'm off. hahahahah yeah right..............oh well continue on and hope for the best.

Well this sucks!!!!

Jess and I went to Sunnybrook for an appointment with the head of the cochlear implant department. He said her headaches are caused by depression and possibly scalp pain. He said that no one has ever had headaches caused by the implant. He told her to take Advil for the headaches and just put up with it. I don't agree with just put up with it. I'm going to talk to Dr. Gillen tomorrow and see what he has to say. I also don't know what I'm going to do about my knee. I'm so pissed off about the swelling and the stiffness in it. It is very painful still and I think after 4 1/2 months I should be better off then I am. I'm afraid to go back to work and then have something come up where I'll need to be off again, cuz then I'll have to start the wait period for LTD all over again. Right now I only have 1 more month to go to qualify. On the upside I fixed the computer all by myself. So at least there is something positive.

shopping

Yesterday we all went shopping. Corbin, Aeva-Grace, Sara, Jess and me went to Ikea and then went to Vaughan Mills. We had a good time, but it was a very long day. By the time we got home everyone was tired and just a tad cranky. I ended up going up to my room because of crankyness!!!!! I'm still having problems with my knee. My leg bends out at a weird angle and my knee swells up to the point I can't bend it. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm suppose to go back to work on Feb 1 but I'm worried that I'm going to have more surgery and if I go back its going to screw up my ltd.
I had a good time today with Sara and the kids. We just hung out, went for a drive and coffee. Overall it was a great day.

Yesterday

Yesterday was a crappy day. It was windy, cold and raining most of the day. Turned into freezing rain later in the day. It was kinda funny when I let Elly out and she slid across the patio. The look on her face was funny. I tried to write this yesterday but the computer wouldn't let me on this site. My leg also was bothering me alot. I know it will get better (fingers crossed), but how much longer???????

daughters

Today I spent the afternoon with Jessica and the evening with Sara. I had a really good time. Jess and I went to the mall and returned the old computer. We then went to Casey's and had a bit to eat and went to the movies. We saw Fun with Dick and Jane. It had some funny moments in it. On the way home we picked up Sara and then dropped off Jess. Sara and I went to the library, Walmart, The Superstore and Shoppers. Sara called John on the way home and I guess Aeva-Grace wasn't happy while her moma was out. Overall I had a great day with both my girls.

family day

today we went to watch John play hockey. Corbin was a good boy. He liked watching the players and playing with Jess. He ate some nachos too.
It is cold here today. I wish it would snow some and feel like winter. My knee is giving me some problems. It is swelling up and is really stiff. Not the 2 things you want in a kneeol. Tomorrow I am taking back my desk top computer and hanging out with Jess in the afternoon and Sara in the evening. That way everyone should be happy.

Happy Birthday Jess

Today is Jessica's 23rd birthday. I can't believe how fast time has gone. It seems like only yesterday she was a tiny baby. We went out to lunch today to Jack Astors. Corbin was such a good boy. He ate a good lunch and was very chatty. Aeva-Grace slept through the whole thing. Jessica had a good time. Tonight we are going to watch some of Jess's movies she got for her birthday.
Back on the lifestyle change tomorrow. Today was a cheat day and we made the best of it!!!!!
I bought Jess a Bingo ticket and she won $6.00. Happy Birthday Jessica..........

blah

I don't know what is wrong with me today. I feel blah. I can't put my finger on it. Corbin was here this morning. He is such an awesome little dude. I think he is getting to sick though. He felt like he had a slight fever and he was kinda staggering. Don wrote me an email today. He is going skiing this weekend with Al and Kim. That should prove interesting. My leg is bothering me today. It is stiff and sore and swollen. But I only have to go once a week now. there isn't much more then can do for me.
Didn't lose any weight this week but didn't gain any either so that is a positive thing. I'm sure we will have a good loss next week, cuz we are sticking with this. We are going to add in more exercise this coming week. Maybe that will help. Going out to lunch tomorrow with the family for Jess's birthday. Keeping my fingers crossed that everyone is happy.

sisters

Sara, Corbin and Aeva-Grace spent the day here. It was nice to spend some time with Corbin. We think he may be getting some more teeth. When he got up from his nap his face was red.
Jessica's birthday is on Saturday. Hard to believe she will be 23. We are going out to lunch. I sure it will be enjoyable.

its raining

Its raining today. Crappy day. We live in Canada and we should be having snow and cold temperatures. Not freaking rain!!!! Aeva-Grace is coming for a sleep over tonight so her Mom can get a full nights sleep. Tomorrow Corbin and Sara are coming over to spend the day. I am looking forward to spending time with my little Boo. Jess and I went shopping today to look for a cabinet for dvds and cds. We couldn't find anything that we both liked so we are going to continue to look. Maybe before I go back to work we can go to Ikea and take Sara and the kids. I'm heading out soon to pick up Sara and Gus. Gus is going to stay here with Jess and Sara and I are going to go shopping to see if we can find something for Jessica's birthday which is on Saturday. She will be 23. I find that so hard to believe.

decisions

I am having a hard time making decisions lately. I want to go back to work without owing them money. I think I'm going to ask my sister for a loan that I will pay back as soon as I get my income tax return. I want to be able to get my full pay when I go back without having money come off. I'm screwed as it is anyway with my line or credit and credit cards being maxed out. I really need to think before I get crazy and go and buy stuff. I mean how sad that Sara felt the need to tell her friends at the Bay not to sell me anything!!!!! I'm still looking forward to going back to work. I went and saw Sara and the kids today. Corbin is so smart. He is learning to talk and he responds to almost everything that you say to him. At least he does when he is not wrapped up in his movies!!! and Gus is so cute. She is cooing and smiling all the time. I am so blessed to have my grandbabies, my girls and even John. Got a ton of stuff to do today so I better get my big rear end into gear.

nothing day

I did nothing today and I really mean nothing. I got up, dressed and came downstairs to have breakfast and I sat on the loveseat all day. I played on the computer, played cards with Jess and watched TV.
Tomorrow is back to therapy. I want to bend my knee to 115 and straighten it to -2 before I go back to work. I think its doable. I need to remember to walk the way Lynda showed me cuz it doesn't hurt my back and hip so much. We also have housework to do tomorrow. The upstairs is a pit and need to be cleaned and rearranged. I also need to get Jess to clean the oven. Its a mess. If we get it all done Monday and Tuesday I would like to see Sara and the kids on Wednesday. Well I'm gonna eat my watermelon, watch Desperate Housewives and head off to bed. Another exciting day awaits me!!!!

us for real

figuring things out

The older I get the smarter I become. Hahahah yeah right. So I got an email back from Don. In big capital letters he has said NO we will never get back together as a couple, but he is thinking of moving back to Ontario to be nearer the girls and the grandkids. I'm glad he is thinking of moving back. I think the girls need to have a "father" in their life. Even Jess who thinks she doesn't. I figured out why I was so ticked at Don for going to Vegas. It wasn't the fact that he went with someone (I hope he finds someone to be happy with), it was the fact that he kept saying he had no money and I told him to forget what he owed me and then he went on a trip!!!!
I enjoy my life for the most part. Sometimes I wish I had someone in my life to enjoy things with but I have Corbin and Aeva-Grace and I am looking forward to doing stuff with them.
When I go back to work I'm going to get on a budget and work hard at getting all the debt paid off. I really am not going to buy anthing but essentials until everything is paid off!!!!!! Wish me luck!!!!

us for real

We lost!!!!!
Well we decided to get weighed today and both Jess and I lost 3lbs!!!! We are on our way. We are going to do it right this time. We are also going to start our exercises today. Well at least I am. I went to the doctors today and I have decided that I am going back to work on Feb 1 on modified hours. 6 hours a day for the first month and hopefully 8 hrs a day the second month. I guess we'll have to wait and see. I got an email from Don. He said he doesn't know what I want. He went to Vegas with a "friend" and doesn't understand why I am upset by this. Duh!!!!! We had an agreement that neither of us would "move" on without telling the other and he didn't do that. I don't know why I still have such strong feelings for him. Anyway back to therapy this afternoon and then we are going to the mall to do a couple of errands. Today, life is great.

us for real

us for real
Day 3 and still sticking to it. I hope the results are good this week. Jess is still sleeping. She isn't feeling well at all. She keeps on having headaches and now says she has a "ringing" in her head. When we were at Sunnybrook yesterday they said complications happen in a small number of implants. Gee imagine that......complications!!!! Anyway she has to see a specialist on the 23rd and I'm sure he'll say too bad so sad.
My knee feels like crap today. I have 2 good days and 3 bad days. Some days I think here I go back to "normal" then crash back to reality and start limping and watching the knee swell. Don sent me an email with pictures of his hike to the mountains. Scenery was beautiful. He also said he will try to write back to me tonight in answer to my email I sent to him. That should be interesting.

Well here it is. Day 2 of the diet.. Still sticking to it and I have impressed myself. I went to the bank today and got depressed. I got to play take from here and give to there.......it sucks!! Took Jess to Sunnybrook today. They remapped her and gave her an appointment with a specialist but basically said there is nothing they can do. This happens in a small (very small) number of people who have had implants. Gee thats a wonderful explaination. Sara says Corbin is better behaved today which I'm sure is making her life easier. Don sent me an email and said he would respond to mine sometime today. Since I told him I'm ticked at him still I can well imagine what he is going to say. Anyway off to have a cup of tea.

My strange but wonderful family

I'm Debi and I'm "Mom" to Sara-Jayne and Jessica. Sara is 26 and the mother of 2 beautiful children, Corbin who is 18 months old and Aeva-Grace who is 6 weeks today. Jessica will be 23 on the 14th of January. Jess still lives with me and Sara-Jayne lives with my most favorite (ok my only) son in law, John, who really is a nice guy (most of the time).
I'm single and like it alot. I'm recovering from a total knee replacement which is taking forever. Sara, Jess any myself have started weight watchers diet. Currently Jess and I can't afford to go to meetings. Money is slightly tight right now cuz I'm not working. Who knows when I'll get to go back. I'm a 911 calltaker/dispatcher and I love it. I will post more tomorrow. Right now I have to deal with the kid.